i've tried my best.
but why does it seem like
i would never get what i want?
failed again.
i hid my tears.
i hid it so well.
that she did not realise anything.
i tried acting tough and controlled.
could feel the warm tears coming out.
finally i walked out of the class
and that was when they flowed freely.
like waterfall.
then, it was lunch.
siying came to look for me.
i burst into tears.
then, we went sac.
and i cried for like the whole lunch.
really tiring.
never felt so tired before.
sick and tired of living.
=where's my confidence?=
