i don't even know what i want.
sometimes , i wished to be mean.
i wish to be evil.
i want everyone to hate me.
i don't even know how to explain
how i feel or even what i want.
what's wrong with me?
and hey. where's my courage? gone?
so what? they are just a bunch of realistic people.
who people claim to be great or like saint.
when they are just human beings.
who are also great hypocrites.
i can't find a word to describe my feelings.
what i am worried about, what i fear.
do they even know? do they even understand?
come on, give me a big smile.
slowly pick up the knife and stab me from the back.
i don't mind.
i am already numb anyway.

=thanks grace=
onestepcloserscribbled@4:07 PM