what more can i say? if i had told you, you would have been hurt deeply. if i hadn't told you, or rather if i had told you another thing, wouldn't i be lying to you? frankly speaking, i never had the courage to face you. evertime. without fail. everytime, i would try to bend my head down as low as possible cuz i did not dare to look at you in the eyes.i have so much to tell you yet i don't even know what i am scared of. until recently, a sudden courage came to me. I could finally look at you and talk to you.Then again, i realised that i've become too "courageous" that i am starting to fear once more. Perhaps it's because you are too mysterious. everything is a mystery to me. that day, i spent long hours thinking whether my decision was right or wrong. return.but it was all too late. if i returned, wouldn't i be setting a large trap for myself to stumble upon again? it really wasn't what i have expected. i wasn't wrong. or .. was i? you may think that i am in the wrong but did you know the other factors which i considered before coming to that conclusion? probably, you wouldn't know how tedious it was to come to that decision. or rather how painful. if you do think i am in the wrong, i can only secretly apologise in my heart. sorry. i do not have the courage to face you again. you are a mystery that probably no one can ever solve.

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